Can’t take credit for the title. It’s part of the theme song from Late Night with Craig Ferguson. And his gay robot companion, Geoff. Still, as I stay up late at night and watch the show, I realize it could be one of the best things on TV- Show, Movie or otherwise.
Speaking of bad movies, we watched “History of Violence” this weekend and it was absolutely gash.
We checked it out from the library and I was STILL screaming for a refund. I did not expect an oscar-winning movie, just entertainment. What I got was a lot of schlock and cliches and white-guys playing mobsters and some pretty heinous plot twists. All in all, I felt the need to complete the movie, but it has lost me after 35 minutes. When you have time invested in such a bomb, you sometimes feel the need to just see the thing through. So that’s what I did, and regret it even as I type this some 48 hours later.
Saturday night I wrapped up another part of my life that is now history. The restaurant sent me off in a good way. I got a free beer out of the deal, and the bartender/guitar player who was playing the pub Saturday night did a couple of songs for/with me. Including some “Journey”. Sorry, inside joke, all you need to know is “Wheel in the Sky” is waaaaaay too long for Karaoke. We harmonized a few lines on “Friend of the Devil” which probably had better vocal harmonies than the Grateful Dead ever did when they played live. I got a card that everyone signed, and got to work while drinking my free beer. It was an easy night, business was slow because of spring break, and the kitchen was cleaned and inspected within a half an hour of closing. Some kind of record.
Some who I had grown close to did not want to do the long goodbye, so I told them I would come visit soon to alleviate any pains of departure. I grabbed my things, took one last look around, and then walked out the back door while yelling “Elvis has left the building!” and I was gone. I took a co-worker home, and we hung out for 20-25 minute and blazed , which for me was the first time in several months. Mother of God, I am glad it was not “The Good Stuff” or I my eyeballs would have melted out of my head. I re-entered the atmosphere a short time later, brought gently back into the atmosphere by the screaming guitar of J Mascis and his band of ne’erdogoods, Dinosaur jr.
So what have I learned? I DON’T like getting hurt, cut, or burnt every night. I read “Kitchen Confidential” when I first started this stint in the biz, and Chef Bourdane warned me this would happen. I also learned that I smelled pretty bad every night after work. At least to myself.. and since I always have to share the room with this guy, it was starting to get on my nerves. I ruined 3 pairs of shorts, one pair of jeans and six black t-shirts during my short tenure at the restaurant. They all stink of grease and no matter how many times I wash them, I am pretty sure that smell will never fully come out.
I also learned that working in the kitchen of a restaurant is different from your own in one fundamental aspect: You can be as messy as you want to be in the restaurant, but the minute you start sauteing onions in your own pan at home and you flip them up in the air and lose several of them before they come back down in the pan, that’s a pain in the butt. And nobody is cleaning it up except YOU. The restaurant’s kitchen was swept up a minimum of 4 times a shift, and it still felt at times we were trudging through a half-inch of crud most days. Although I do have dogs (a.k.a. ”The Cleanup Crew”) at home, there are a great many things they should not eat that we seem to cook with daily – Onions and Garlic to name just two.
You learn who your real friends at any job were the day you leave. There were a couple who are probably happy to see me go, but they were slackers, gun-deckers, and lay-a-bouts looking to get through their shift and collect their cash regardless of how they treated others, or how much work they helped create for me while there. One particular waitress had been there several months before I started, and she STILL has no idea what’s on the menu. She is definitely happy to see me leave, she was getting pretty sick of me telling her that she should know the menu and to stop playing with her phone at work. Still, you just have to wonder..how hard could it have been to circle a side salad.
We had a decent Easter sunday, did some work on the car and out in the yard. Took the dogs to the park and started to get cold and chilly so we cut it a little shorter than we usually do. We ate the traditional unleavened bread and drank red wine, a tradition in my family these past four years. Family.. yeah, it sounds weird that a person with no children would be talking about those who live under their roof as their “family”.. but even with no kids, my dogs have a bunch of personality and “personality goes a long way.” I see the chapter of my life closing and the new one opening before my eyes.
When we knew we were losing Jack, it was at the same time I was starting at the restaurant. I had noted to DW that never in my life have I seen a new epoch unfold before my very eyes in such a palpable manner. You could sense the change happening, mechanically and with no way to turn back and retreat into its comfort. We were moving on, and the universe had put up the road signs to let us know which direction we were heading and at what speed.
I have occupied my mind and my life with the restaurant long enough. I see this new chapter beginning, and I hope it comes out to be a much cheerier situation than the last 6 months has afforded me. The work was not bad, and if anything it made a good enough distraction for everything wrong that was happening around me.. something to focus on.I can only stare at the page so long before I turn it, whether I read everything on it or not. And here I am, turning the page to the next part of my life.
A new chapter? Time will tell. I hope so, I hope its one that ties up loose ends, makes sense, and leaves those readers who witness it satisfied with the direction the author has taken. I ..feel… different. In control of myself, maybe truly for the first time ever. That has me a little angry as well, but I cannot change who I was, but I feel I can start dictating where I am going with authority. My goal, I am so close, yet infinitely too far away from accomplishing anything. I sit and stare at what I have done and ask if it was enough, or will I have to go back into that restaurant and work in the heat, with crazies and crackheads and finish what I started?
No. I will make it there by another path or not at all. Elvis HAS left the building, and he’s not coming back. The restaurant will soon become a memory and my future ambitions will become the past. I will grow from this, because I really do not have a choice.. but I will enjoy the growth ans prepare for something greater still. And I’ll do it somewhere less greasy, I hope.
That about wraps it up, B.